Is it just me?

Yesterday I went to Home Depot to get a quote on having the ocuntertop in our kitchen replaced. The quote they gave me for it was higher then what Lowes's wanted. Home Depot wanted almost a grand and Lowes wanted about 850$. But the good news is that the guy showed me how to do it myself and we're going to give it a shot. It'll be cheaper to do it ourselves anyway. The countertop we're looking at has no backsplash on it, which will make it easier for me to do the tiling on the wall.

Bug did really good yesterday, she ate alot. The only bad thing was that while I was out doing the errands Strider called me to find out if I was on my way home yet, which I was. He said that Bug was being rather fussy. As soon as I walked in the door she was all smiles, guess she just wanted her mama.

Bug's still asleep so I can get a few things done aruond the house. Then it's all Bug time until Strider gets homes. He's supposed to be coming home early because I have a dr's appointment. Hopefully Bug will be calm for him today and not get fussy because mama's not in her sight.

Am I a bad mommy?

Sometimes I feel like I'm failing my Bug. Everytime she cries it breaks my heart, so I try to keep her as happy as possible. I play with her all the time, feed her her favorite food and give her her favorite cookies. In spite of all that I still feel like I'm not doing a good job as a mom. I get so scared sometimes that I'm going to hurt her, or that she hates me. But then I see that smile and I forget it all.

Maybe I'm just losing my mind, or maybe this is normal, I have no idea.

My hubby keeps trying to reassure me that I'm not failing Bug, but it doesn't seem to help much.

I also feel like the oldest mom in my neighborhood. I don't know anyone around here and we moved here about a year and a half ago. I'm not very outgoing, so that could be why. I prefer to stay at home with the Bug.

A day...

Well, to say that today was boring would be an understatement. Bug was fussy today, refused to take more then a 30 minute nap all day. When she's tired it's difficult to get her to eat. Plus she did alot of playing today, which did make her hungry, but then she wanted to look all around the room instead of eating.

To top it all off, my hubby got food poisoning. He ate the left overs from dinner last night and ended up sick from them...now that makes me feel horrible. He had packed the left overs up and put them into the fridge as soon as we were finished with dinner, so we know the food was good. The poor guy can't even keep water down.

I'll be staying up until he stops throwing up, have to keep giving him water to keep him hydrated, even if he does keep throwing it up. Better to throw up water then stomach acids, right?