Enough is enough

How many times do I have to tell her to stop talking about my finances? How many times do I have to yell it at her before she gets the hint that it's not her business? How many times do I have to suffer through the way she talks to me, yells at me, attempts to guilt trip me? Does she want to push me to the point of suicide? Is that her ultimate goal?

She's already pushing me to the point that I don't want to talk to her and I don't want Bug talking to her, not until she changes her angry ways. She gets me so damned upset that my stomach hurts for days that i sink deeper into the darkness of this goddamned depression that I'm trying to get out of.

I also asked her to stop telling my brother and sister in law about Bug, Strider and I, if they want to know they can damned well call. My life and my family is no one's business but my own.  I want my mom to be a part of my life, but with how angry she is all the time I'm not sure I can handle it anymore. She's becoming toxic to everyone around her including herself. 

Is it jealousy that my marriage is lasting and hers failed? Is it jealousy because I can be here for Bug and she could have been there for my brother and I?  One would think she'd be happy about that not angry, happy that I can do those things for my Bug, yet she's so damned angry all the time.

She talks down to people, bad mouths people, especially if they're overweight.  She needs to get out and make friends, but with how damned picky she is she'll never make friends. They have to be a certain mentality and certain body type of she wants nothing to do with them, and that sickens me. It always has to be about her and I just can't take it anymore.

< /RANT >